I had started this out as just a comment to a fellow RoW'er's blog from 12/29..but it turned into my own post it seems….:

“some part of me doesn’t know what I’ll do when I’m done.”….I totally get that!!! It’s easy after so many years of being fat to just start to believe that “fat” is your destiny, or truth. You know you’re going to start succeeding again when you get uncomfortable at the size you’ve gotten down to. I did that last year. I had used my new found love of exercise as an excuse to start eating more calories. And, I ended up gaining some weight back that I had worked so hard to lose already. Like I have said before, I am just now forgiving myself for that weight gain.

But, I am here now, and BL rejecting Garrett and I was not in vein, since I am kicking a$$ now and am finally combining both diet and exercise together.

I eat well, and move my body, and it’s something I know I will have to do for the rest of my life. I’m looking at food and it’s nutritional factors much differently this time. I am succeeding already. I am on kick to be positive since my trainer yelled at me for saying negative things about my body. She wanted me to give her a quarter for every negative thing. And, dang, I already give her enough of my money!!

I just wanted to say….that I am happy to have you all in my life now, as we all move towards the best version of ourselves. I am working towards accepting my new truth - of healthy living and staying committed to my goals….of someone who doesn’t always give into temptation and overeat. You all inspire me, and I hope that I inspire you!